[When she slams the door that way, Yuuto does indeed begin to fear that he's pushed too far. This is it. He's crossed the line. Now Taiga knows that he's not actually a good person. Ryoko is going to know that he's an awful person. Everyone will know and everyone will leave, just like always, and he deserves it--
He flinches out of his thoughts when she opens the door again, breathing again after being breathlessly scared. Yuuto's brain is so fried with self hatred that he looks so a weapon. What he sees, for some reason, is a knit square.
Though he accepts, he looks very confused.]
Is it okay? This is... [He looks down at the square, fighting back tears.] You're not angry?
W-why would I be angry?! Do I seem angry?! I'm not angry!
[ Quick, damage control time! ...How do you do damage control? ]
I-It's just! Why do you think I'd just toss your scarf away, if I got a different one? Th-there's a lot of--[ love ]--l-l... a lot of care that goes into these things, r-right?! It'd be like kicking over a snowman someone made in front of them? A-a-and anyway, what if I want to match a scarf with a coat? Then it's better to have more of them, and it shows that, uh, that there's people that appreciate me! What if it's too warm for a warmer scarf but not warm enough you don't need a scarf?!
[As she goes on with damage control, Yuuto is making sure to steady his breathing. He can't go crying here-- It'll make everything sad! And worse yet, it'll worry her worse. He can see Taiga is trying to make up for his careless comment and he doesn't want to make things more stressful for her.
But he does hold the square to his face for a moment, hiding his pitiful expression as he gets his feelings under control. Just a few months ago, receiving something like this was an impossible fantasy.]
Mm... Mm, mm. You're right.
[With his happy tears under control, Yuuto lowers the square and smiles.]
Aisaka-san... Thank you so much. So so much. I'll treasure this forever! It's so cute and pretty... I love it so much!
[ Taiga doesn't even seem to realise that Yuuto was close to tears, she's so wrapped up in her own rambling. ]
Wait, I didn't mean you had to keep m-my-- [ Taiga Aisaka has been defeated by her own words. She lets out a sigh, trying to pull herself together before they attract unwanted attention. ] I'm glad you like it... But you are getting a full scarf, okay?
Eh? But wouldn’t that take a lot of time and e… fort…
[It clicks.
Wait-
Friendship..! This is friendship..!
He looks awed by his discovery.]
That would make me so happy! I can’t even imagine being happier than I am right now..! Please um- Don’t pressure yourself. Okay? I’m already so lucky- I don’t know what I’d do with so much happiness??
[ If such a tiny, shitty square was enough to elicit this kind of overenthusiastic response, could he even handle getting a full scarf? Is she bringing on a kind of responsibility that she's completely clueless of with this promise? Taiga's almost certain she'll find a way to regret this later, but something about how earnest Yuuto is... It's a bit nostalgic. ]
I mean, it is getting to be the holiday season! The best thing to do is spread the happiness around, so everyone can feel that warmth! I have it on good authority that Santa would be proud.
[He’s not sure if he could ever explain how much this means to him. For so long, Yuuto has lived a life where he receives gifts meant for someone else. He’s always been receiving the love intended for another person, and he’s learned to accept it on their behalf. Because he knows that showing love feels good. He doesn’t want to make anyone sad by telling them that the person they love never existed. His empty existence has been filled with gifts, but he cannot keep them for ‘himself.’
This is one of the first times that he’s receiving a gift for himself. Taiga probably didn’t plan it, but a small square like this is something that he can keep in his pocket: He’s going to be able to carry it to any world that he ends up in. It’s a little piece of the happiness he’s found here and Yuuto is going to treasure it forever.
He’s still holding the square carefully as his expression turns to a softer smile. He even laughs a bit.]
I’ll do my best to make Santa-senpai proud, then. You’ve shown me so much kindness… I’ll pass it on too! Until happiness covers the whole city like snow
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He flinches out of his thoughts when she opens the door again, breathing again after being breathlessly scared. Yuuto's brain is so fried with self hatred that he looks so a weapon. What he sees, for some reason, is a knit square.
Though he accepts, he looks very confused.]
Is it okay? This is... [He looks down at the square, fighting back tears.] You're not angry?
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W-why would I be angry?! Do I seem angry?! I'm not angry!
[ Quick, damage control time! ...How do you do damage control? ]
I-It's just! Why do you think I'd just toss your scarf away, if I got a different one? Th-there's a lot of--[ love ]--l-l... a lot of care that goes into these things, r-right?! It'd be like kicking over a snowman someone made in front of them? A-a-and anyway, what if I want to match a scarf with a coat? Then it's better to have more of them, and it shows that, uh, that there's people that appreciate me! What if it's too warm for a warmer scarf but not warm enough you don't need a scarf?!
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But he does hold the square to his face for a moment, hiding his pitiful expression as he gets his feelings under control. Just a few months ago, receiving something like this was an impossible fantasy.]
Mm... Mm, mm. You're right.
[With his happy tears under control, Yuuto lowers the square and smiles.]
Aisaka-san... Thank you so much. So so much. I'll treasure this forever! It's so cute and pretty... I love it so much!
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[ Taiga doesn't even seem to realise that Yuuto was close to tears, she's so wrapped up in her own rambling. ]
Wait, I didn't mean you had to keep m-my-- [ Taiga Aisaka has been defeated by her own words. She lets out a sigh, trying to pull herself together before they attract unwanted attention. ] I'm glad you like it... But you are getting a full scarf, okay?
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[It clicks.
Wait-
Friendship..! This is friendship..!
He looks awed by his discovery.]
That would make me so happy! I can’t even imagine being happier than I am right now..! Please um- Don’t pressure yourself. Okay? I’m already so lucky- I don’t know what I’d do with so much happiness??
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I mean, it is getting to be the holiday season! The best thing to do is spread the happiness around, so everyone can feel that warmth! I have it on good authority that Santa would be proud.
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This is one of the first times that he’s receiving a gift for himself. Taiga probably didn’t plan it, but a small square like this is something that he can keep in his pocket: He’s going to be able to carry it to any world that he ends up in. It’s a little piece of the happiness he’s found here and Yuuto is going to treasure it forever.
He’s still holding the square carefully as his expression turns to a softer smile. He even laughs a bit.]
I’ll do my best to make Santa-senpai proud, then. You’ve shown me so much kindness… I’ll pass it on too! Until happiness covers the whole city like snow